Ahoy internet people,
guess who’s back! Yay it is me. YAY (it is yay, right?)
So, the past week was quite difficult to me. No, I didn’t create the new style for the blog. No, I didn’t have a really great time with my friends hanging out in some party. NO.
I WAS WRITING. a personal statement. Because I am a responsible student and I think about my future and…. who am I kidding. I am quite a failure and my PS is soo childish.
This is why I had writers block. This statement has squeezed my brains till the last drop. It was one of the most difficult tasks in my entire life. It was so hard to write and not to copycat any other personal statement I had read before. Copying can cause you the place in whole UCAS system ( yes, I’m thinking of UK universities), because if your PS is accurate to other for more than 10% , you are out for sure. Aaaand that shit is just hard, writing the whole thing, trying to be bright and to stay in a limit of the theme and to put yourself in short sentences.. so if you are going to the UK for your studies, and you are foreigner like me, and you haven’t started writing your personal statement yet, you need a best of luck because that stupid motivation monolog will be the pain in your butt.
The nexxttt toping is quite sad for me.
I’m leaving school this year. This September is very last for me, because I am senior this year. Like, WOW, where I have put all of my school years, like are you for real man??? It looks like I’ve just started going to school, and this is what I’m going to do for the rest of my life. OMG I can’t imagine my future after leaving this whole system. IT is so unknown and a bit scary thing. I have a deep feeling inside me that says ” don’t you worry guuurl, you’ll be back here next yearrr”, but then a reality strikes and I understand that holly shit, this is it. Take it or leave it.
I’m so childish, I don’t count myself as a responsible adult, I want to be free and jump around and do silly thiiiings. Senior year, that is smashing reality. When did I grow up? like, 12 years from 18 I have spent in school, this is where I spent my 2/3 years of my life. This is where I had not so very first love, first broken heart, a lot of happy moments ( especially in high school/gymnasium. Secondary school was full of bullies and bullying and a lot of crying), a lot of disappointments, this is where I knew what are real people. I SPENT MY WHOLE LIFE STRUGGLING WITH MATH HERE.
And now, *boom* I have to become a responsible and serious adult within one year. THAT is impossible. I’ll never be serious adult just like Taylor Swift is never ever getting back together with Harry Styles.
So this is it. I’m so thankful to all of you, who are reading this kinda blog. And before saying bye bye, I want to put a quotation from Bryan Adams song “Here I Am”, because it perfectly fits this whole situation with school and stuff.
Here we are we’ve just begun
And after all this time our time has come
Ya here we are still goin’ strong
Right here in the place where we belong
Stay fab fellas, enjoy the moment you live in!!